Fiddy

I went a few weeks without weighing myself and feeling really depressed.  I've been off my anti-depressants for a few months and I really don't want to go back on them, but it was getting really bad.  Then, poof!  Suddenly I felt better.  I think I need to do some research on PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) because I have all the symptoms. 

Anyway, I finally got on the scale and I've met my first weight goal.  50 pounds down!  This means I can start yoga when I get home in a couple weeks.

 

 

The 50 pounds came at four months post-op.  I had really been hoping it would happen at two, but I'm not disappointed or beating myself up.  It's been hard getting to this point, and I'm still learning and failing, and trying again and figuring it all out.  There's a lot of food issues I still need to work out in my head and I still have the really bad habit of wanting to eat late at night.  But, I've done what I can and I've lost 50 pounds and that's more than I've ever lost on my own.  So I'm very happy about it.

I can finally say I'm really glad I had this surgery.  I never could've done this on my own.  I've had a lot of stress the last few weeks and that's when my sleeve has really kicked in and saved me, and prevented me from eating thousands of calories in comfort foods.  I admit I still ate some, but my sleeve would only let me eat so much.  So, yes.  I love my sleeve and I'm striving to work WITH it.