sleepy times

I met with the dietician today.  It was... strange. I was excited for this meeting because this is the key to the whole thing, right? Bodies are made in the kitchen, success depends on what I'm putting in my mouth, etc. etc.

Well, the dietician I met with was having a problem staying awake. She kept nodding off, while she was talking to me! and while she was talking to me, she wasn't making much sense. I was like this the whole time:

In telling my sister about it later, I was like, I don't blame her. Her office was hot, and there were no windows or oxygen. Or maybe she had narcolepsy. And my sister said, "NOT YOUR PROBLEM!" Then she said she thinks I'm too understanding and take too much b.s. and make too many excuses for other people. Maybe. But I've felt that horrible sleepiness before.  Never when I'm actually meeting with a client or talking to someone though.  She could've said she was sick and rescheduled me, or passed me off to one of the other dieticians since this is my only appointment regarding food and diet.   

I kept asking her if I should measure and how much exactly. And she would mumble, "You could do that." I kept asking about specific calories.  She kept saying to eat until I feel satisfied. Lady, if I could stop when I was satisfied I wouldn't be needing surgery!  And she kept mentioning rice and how to eat only one cup of rice. It was my understanding, that after being sleeved, I most likely will not be eating a lot of rice.  I was so confused!

Anyway, I don't want to be too negative about her.  She is probably very good, just not at her best during our meeting. It just reinforces the fact that this is all going to be my responsibility. I will just have to do some more research on my own. Maybe I should find another dietician. There's supposedly a pretty good one at my gym.  I just don't want anyone trying to talk me out of surgery, which people have been doing lately. 

Tomorrow at my surgeon's office there is a sleeve/bypass support group, followed by one of the behavioral change classes. I'm not required to go to any of those, but I kind of wanted to. Unfortunately, it starts at 8am and here it is already 3:30am. I stayed up trying to catch up on work that's due Sunday. I don't know if I'll be able to get up in four hours, but I'm going to try.