one month down

This is my fourth week out from surgery.  It's been a hard, hard month.

Right now I'm in the midst of pneumonia.  I think the worst of that is over though.  Today is the first day I've been able to take a shower.  All the coughing has really aggravated points inside my torso.  I really hope I'm not doing any damage to my inner incisions.

I still haven't been cleared for exercise other than cardio, and still no swimming.  My incsion split open so that set me back a bit, I guess. I've been really kind of depressed and angry and I think it's because I haven't been able to swim.  I didn't swim for exercise, I swam for my head.

I was supposed to go to Phoenix next week to see family but I had to cancel because of the pneumonia.  I will go straight to California when I'm feeling better.  Hopefully by then I will be able to swim.  I won't have access to a gym, but I can do my own strenght training and my beautiful bike is there!  How I've missed my bike.  It won't be too hot yet, so I'll be able to ride during the day.

I've lost some weight, -25.5 pounds on my one month mark.  But I'm too sick to care much about it yet. So far the pros of this surgery are not outweighing the cons, I know that will change though.  Until then I just keep trying to do what I can do.