3 more days

I feel much better mentally than I did yesterday.  My stomach is still a little angry, and my back muscles hurt so bad, I guess I used muscles throwing up that I haven't used in a while.  So much all that swimming does for me!

I talked to the lab at the hospital this morning and she said all my tests are there.  Everything they usually do for the sleeve was completed and she doesn't know what the surgeon's office was talking about.  She will call the surgeon's office on Monday.  She said there is no point in me fasting just in case for more blood work, because she doesn't know what more blood work they can do.

I came so close to telling my cousin about my surgery last night.  I haven't told her.  I've told very few people actually, because I just don't want to have to defend my decision, and I figure once they see what a success the surgery has been for me and my life, then I can tell them.  I need pure support right now.  I can't have anyone giving me their unresearched opinion on bariatric surgery at this time.  Then, I decided it was too much to put on her at this late date.  But then I realized, when my cousin finds out I did this and didn't tell her, she will probably be very angry.  We talk every single day and I've kept this from her. 

Whatever.  In the end, she wants me to be healthy and happy.  If she's mad, she will come around eventually.

I'm just nervous.  I don't ever want to be that sick again and now I'm scared about being that sick while hooked up to needles and in pain.  The nurse told me that there are a lot of muscles in the stomach and that's why there is pain. 

I really wish I'd thought to ask for some anxiety meds.